A Jack of All Trades

I need change.

I need to work on my time management. I need to put time out for this blog.

I've just been caught up with some current goals of mine -- specifically 'what does it mean to feel strong?' Kinda weird, but I really want to make my body look symmetrical and cut up for some reason.

I've tried to step back and ask myself why. I won't lie -- aesthetics has something to do with it. But I also think it's just another way to improve myself, which is something I've always been up to my whole life for some reason -- I pick up something and I immediately want to become awesome at it. I scour the internet for videos and articles, I read forums about it, I read wiki pages. I learn and adapt super fast, too. I don't know why I do this.

Since I've been living my whole life like this, in all modesty... I've become above average at alot of things, to the point where I'm pretty good.

A jack of all trades.

One thing that bothers me a bit about this, is that there isn't really one thing I am the MASTER of. There isn't one thing that I'm like, "Oh yeah I'm the best in the world at this, hands down. You can't see me, son." You see masters of their craft... Michael Jordan, Bill Gates, Warren Buffet, shit even Kanye West. They found that one thing and they dropped everything for it. They dedicated their night and days to it. Their desire persevered through all obstacles.

It's really inspiring to me.

I'm jealous. I want to find this one thing. I have a couple ideas of what it could be, but we'll see. It's ironic because it fits in with my lifestyle of wanting to latch on and get good at something. Anyway, once I find this thing... it's OVER!

It'll be tough for me to put the video games down though, lol.